Surgical Scars

Following the victrectomy, I have spent a lot of time with my eyes closed. I used bandages and shields longer than recommended to keep the left eye dormant. I don’t exactly do much these days, especially while I am supposed to not exert and thus strain muscles that may be connected to the eye, so this has been mostly manageable. My reasoning ties directly to the experience of the complications that darkened my right eye ten years ago.
Back then, my right eye misaligned as the eye looked around the obstruction caused by a temporary cornea abrasion. I recently had an inexplicable minor abrasion on the left eye, which I did not worry about because I couldn’t see out the eye too clearly anyway.
Post victrectomy, the cornea is more of an issue. The procedure involved draining the eye of silicone oil and refilling it with saline solution. I didn’t ask many details about the procedure, because I didn’t want to know details that sound horrific in theory. But my basic ideas of sticking something in the eye to drain and fill seemed about right.
There’s scars in the cornea. They are at the bottom of the field of vision, but can rise to more central prominence as the eye looks around. I tend to look at the scars as they strike me as cool in a morbid way.
The most prominent are three perfect dark rimmed circles in the formation of an upwards-pointing triangle. Aside the dark edges, I can see through these bubbles. There’s a fourth circle to the right of the upper part of the triangle. I can really only see that one when I focus on the strange pattern. Two much smaller circles will also become evident These are the scars of needles or hoses stuck in my eye during the surgical procedure.
I do not expect these scars to be permanent. But until the limited cells of the cornea resettle, the formation is a distraction to my vision. I’m pretty confident that the circles are on the cornea as the formation realigns when I focus on it. The triangle spreads out or flattens and the smaller "needle holes" will rearrange around the larger circles. Unlike the retinapathy flashers or the scar of "light" that is the mark of the original Cialis-induced vitreous hemorrhage, these scars are only visible when the eye is open and hit by light. Closing my eyes makes the circles go away. The next time I see them, they return in their original formation.
I am afraid of any instinct to look around the scars, or to focus on them. My right eye suffered permanent damage to the internal muscular structure by looking around the minor obstruction on the cornea.
I figure better safe than sorry, and the closed eyes help ensure I take it easy during the healing process.